dear God,

I don't know how to start off this letter to You from my heart. Ever since I arrived at Rutgers, I've been hearing songs and prayers in my dreams. Were those merely dreams or were You telling me something? It has been my prayer that they be one of Your many incredible ways of giving me hope and encouragement to go another day. I've begun to feel doubtful about my decision to transfer to the College of Nursing next year. It is still in my heart--given by You--the passion and desire to reach out to the elderly all over the world. I need You in this exhausted time. My soul is weary from asking so many questions and receiving not enough answers. Will You open my eyes, craft my heart into a humble and obedient one, so that I may follow Your ways? There is nothing greater in this world than to be in Your presence wherever I go. You bring me unspeakable joy, convictions that acquaint my knees with the carpet, and peace in a wretched world. I want to look only upon You. To lay down my crowns at Your feet isn't the most pleasant feeling (at the moment) but what comes from my surrender is everlasting and sweet because it is for You. Heavenly Father, I pray for Your kingdom to come into my life.