1. surprisingly, i adore children
2. the bus system at rutgers isn't as confusing as it seems at first glance
3. picnik is an awesome alternative to photoshop
4. majority of the time, koreans will stick with koreans
5. i could eat shrimp cocktail all day
6. perspective is everything
7. after all the chasing, only God satisfies me
8. i dream more than my friends
9. we can overcome poverty, but we won't sacrifice our comfortable lifestyles
10. i need to lower my expectations of people
December 30, 2010
December 24, 2010
17 things i collect
1. fortune cookie messages
2. seashells
3. rocks/pebbles
4. souvenir pennies
5. tickets
6. photos
7. metal angels
8. letters/notes
9. rings
10. ID cards
11. rubber bracelets
12. name tags
13. pins
14. entrance wristbands
15. books
16. autographs
17. quotes
2. seashells
3. rocks/pebbles
4. souvenir pennies
5. tickets
6. photos
7. metal angels
8. letters/notes
9. rings
10. ID cards
11. rubber bracelets
12. name tags
13. pins
14. entrance wristbands
15. books
16. autographs
17. quotes
December 15, 2010
December 9, 2010
winter surprises
I'm convinced that college is one of the reasons why I lost track of time like never before. I can't believe Christmas is in two weeks, 2011 in three, and my 19th birthday just two days later. As if there weren't already enough surprises, the Jenny from a year ago would've never expected her heart to be transformed into what it is today. I was reading a journal entry dated two days before Christmas last year and how I longed to go to the aquarium for my 18th birthday. It all sounded exciting until I read the last sentence, in which I compared myself to a fish that wanted to be free from their prison lifestyle. Obviously I wasn't in the best holiday spirits. But praise God...
"Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits--who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." -Psalm 103:1-5
"Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits--who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." -Psalm 103:1-5
November 13, 2010
a morning in rutgers
Me: My friend's still sleeping and I'm editing her paper while listening to Christmas songs<3
Friend: That's cute that you had a little sleepover :P What kind of Christmas songs...you're a tad early.
Me: Christmas songs that don't mention Santa Claus. I have this theory...that Claus is a tad bit creepy.
Friend: Why is he a tad creepy?
Me: An old man knows where all the "good kids" live...enters their homes through chimneys. What if there wasn't a chimney? Kick down the door like Hagrid?
Friend: Naw he just does that thing that wizards do I forgot what it was...Appareateor something like that.
Me: Ewww he should go retire and spend more time with his wife instead of bonding with the reindeers and finding children's homes!!
Friend: Maybe his wife divorced him.
A perfectly normal conversation on a Saturday morning in Rutgers.
Friend: That's cute that you had a little sleepover :P What kind of Christmas songs...you're a tad early.
Me: Christmas songs that don't mention Santa Claus. I have this theory...that Claus is a tad bit creepy.
Friend: Why is he a tad creepy?
Me: An old man knows where all the "good kids" live...enters their homes through chimneys. What if there wasn't a chimney? Kick down the door like Hagrid?
Friend: Naw he just does that thing that wizards do I forgot what it was...Appareateor something like that.
Me: Ewww he should go retire and spend more time with his wife instead of bonding with the reindeers and finding children's homes!!
Friend: Maybe his wife divorced him.
A perfectly normal conversation on a Saturday morning in Rutgers.
October 26, 2010
i need You
Exhaustion is hitting me. I feel like I'm running into a brick wall. I'm cranky. I'm on the brink of breaking down.
"When suffering's all that I see, may I walk with You by faith and not by sight."
"When suffering's all that I see, may I walk with You by faith and not by sight."
October 17, 2010
thank You
You loved me before You said, "Let there be light."
You knew me before I was formed in my mother's womb.
You sacrificed Your Son before I heard of You.
You wanted me before You were my heart's desire.
You were ready to embrace me before I needed You.
You had the answers before I asked.
You already won the battles before I faced them.
Now..."I come before You today and there's just one thing that I want to say. Thank You, Lord." -Don Moen
You knew me before I was formed in my mother's womb.
You sacrificed Your Son before I heard of You.
You wanted me before You were my heart's desire.
You were ready to embrace me before I needed You.
You had the answers before I asked.
You already won the battles before I faced them.
Now..."I come before You today and there's just one thing that I want to say. Thank You, Lord." -Don Moen
October 11, 2010
God's flying flowers
I saw something magical this afternoon: two butterflies flying together. In the span of a few seconds, they captivated me with their gracefulness that I forgot all the anxieties in my heart. It's so wonderful that the God who made it possible for those butterflies to fly is crazy in love with me.
October 4, 2010
i'll sink without You
I was doing QT this morning when I read this verse: "I will set his hand over the sea, his right hand over the river."-Psalm 89:25. Then I remembered my dream from last night.
It was like a waterfall and a tsunami fused together. Children as young as three were splashing in the waters as the tidal waves were building up. When the waves came crashing down, the children jumped in sync with them and none drowned. I watched this scenario with fear from a narrow ledge along a wall when I noticed a man, possibly around his mid-30s, standing several feet ahead of me. It seemed to me that he was controlling the waves and giving cues to the children on when to jump. I could see mirth and joy in the faces of the children, all of them trusting the man in authority. Next thing I knew, I was with a young boy who began splashing water at me, laughing all the while. The boy's face and his clothes glowed like the sun. I couldn't help but think how much he resembled a heavenly angel. I forgot that I was afraid of the waves earlier. In this young boy's presence, I could only feel peace.
Oh God, my God, I am in awe of the ways You reveal Yourself to me.
It was like a waterfall and a tsunami fused together. Children as young as three were splashing in the waters as the tidal waves were building up. When the waves came crashing down, the children jumped in sync with them and none drowned. I watched this scenario with fear from a narrow ledge along a wall when I noticed a man, possibly around his mid-30s, standing several feet ahead of me. It seemed to me that he was controlling the waves and giving cues to the children on when to jump. I could see mirth and joy in the faces of the children, all of them trusting the man in authority. Next thing I knew, I was with a young boy who began splashing water at me, laughing all the while. The boy's face and his clothes glowed like the sun. I couldn't help but think how much he resembled a heavenly angel. I forgot that I was afraid of the waves earlier. In this young boy's presence, I could only feel peace.
Oh God, my God, I am in awe of the ways You reveal Yourself to me.
October 3, 2010
September 28, 2010
rainy monday
Today I used my umbrella for the first time at Rutgers! But it's true: I only love the rain when I'm not in it. I saw a lot of girls in rain boots and it got me thinking...one day I'm going to get myself matching yellow raincoat and rain boots and jump in puddles.
September 25, 2010
dear God,
I don't know how to start off this letter to You from my heart. Ever since I arrived at Rutgers, I've been hearing songs and prayers in my dreams. Were those merely dreams or were You telling me something? It has been my prayer that they be one of Your many incredible ways of giving me hope and encouragement to go another day. I've begun to feel doubtful about my decision to transfer to the College of Nursing next year. It is still in my heart--given by You--the passion and desire to reach out to the elderly all over the world. I need You in this exhausted time. My soul is weary from asking so many questions and receiving not enough answers. Will You open my eyes, craft my heart into a humble and obedient one, so that I may follow Your ways? There is nothing greater in this world than to be in Your presence wherever I go. You bring me unspeakable joy, convictions that acquaint my knees with the carpet, and peace in a wretched world. I want to look only upon You. To lay down my crowns at Your feet isn't the most pleasant feeling (at the moment) but what comes from my surrender is everlasting and sweet because it is for You. Heavenly Father, I pray for Your kingdom to come into my life.
May 17, 2010
things that made me happy today
1. my new haircut
2. the weather
3. Robbie Seay Band's songs "Awaken My Soul" and "Your Love is Strong"
4. worshiping with my youth group
5. seeing a possible sunflower sprout in the foam cup
6. hearing the voice of a friend I haven't seen in a year
7. clearing the weeds that grew around the mailbox and marigolds
8. cold orange juice
9. realizing that graduation is in four weeks
10. singing
11. driving past a meadow
12. taking a cute picture with a lovely friend
13. playing the piano
14. hearing lawn mowers around the neighborhood
15. playing with my dog
April 17, 2010
gardening day
So I finally took the initiative to put my gardening skills to the test. I woke up to a brilliant sunrise and started working with a shovel and a spade while the singing robins and butterflies kept me company. Then I drove to Home Depot to buy flowers, garden soil, and a watering can. There I met a British woman while I was waiting in line (and loved her accent!). I'm happy that the small area of weeds are replaced with flowers and hopefully the sunflowers seeds that I planted will grow. My mum believes nothing will sprout but I choose to believe otherwise.
"But each spring...a gardening instinct, sure as the sap rising in the trees, stirs within us. We look about and decide to tame another little bit of ground." -Lewis Gantt
March 8, 2010
spring list
Now that winter's nearly gone and spring is right around the corner, I'm doing jumping jacks and somersaults. And listing things to do.
1. Plant sunflower seeds
2. Get my hair trimmed
3. Visit Rutgers University
4. Take a photo walk in Princeton
5. Write melodies to all the phrases I thought of to make into songs
6. Run
7. Find a job/hospital where I can volunteer
February 13, 2010
the great love
I was in my basement and came across something my grandmother made two summers ago, which has yet to be framed. The notion that a woman in her 70s was able to make that with such preciseness is perplexing. I can't even cut a straight line.
Her artwork reminded me of God and His carefulness and love when He created me. The moment brought me shame when I thought of all the complaints I had about myself. Too often I concentrated on my imperfections (as viewed by the human eye) that it slipped my mind that I'm a big screaming deal to God. That I was created to have an intimate fellowship with Him not because of what I am but because of what He is.
Praise God and His great love.
February 10, 2010
ivory lane
I watched and saw from my window pane
How they lightly danced
How they jovially flew
How they flickered so white
How they blurred my sight
How they slowly grew
How they swiftly drew
A picturesque of an ivory lane.
How they lightly danced
How they jovially flew
How they flickered so white
How they blurred my sight
How they slowly grew
How they swiftly drew
A picturesque of an ivory lane.
Karen Mae Pagulong
February 5, 2010
a cheerful heart
A simple hi is sometimes more than enough for me, especially when it's a pleasant surprise.
It was during math class when it all happened. I was pulling out my graphic calculator from my backpack and when I turned it on, the word HI appeared on the screen. Had someone gone through my bag? I knew it wasn't me because I'd never type such a word, or anything, before turning off the calculator.
Maybe I should have been on the alert for the unknown individual who was responsible for this but I can't help but say that simple greeting brightened my time, even for a moment, in the class that mentally drains me.
On another note, happy birthday to my padre.
As one of my traditions, I jazzed up the living room with balloons that were manually blown and hung from the ceiling. Although I have a mondo fear for them, which grew even more when one popped in my face today, it's my third year doing this and once again I'm glad I overcame this fear because colorful balloons always cheer up a heart.
It was during math class when it all happened. I was pulling out my graphic calculator from my backpack and when I turned it on, the word HI appeared on the screen. Had someone gone through my bag? I knew it wasn't me because I'd never type such a word, or anything, before turning off the calculator.
Maybe I should have been on the alert for the unknown individual who was responsible for this but I can't help but say that simple greeting brightened my time, even for a moment, in the class that mentally drains me.
On another note, happy birthday to my padre.
As one of my traditions, I jazzed up the living room with balloons that were manually blown and hung from the ceiling. Although I have a mondo fear for them, which grew even more when one popped in my face today, it's my third year doing this and once again I'm glad I overcame this fear because colorful balloons always cheer up a heart.
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